While young, the author spotted a pattern of movement with his birth-parents while in the kitchen of a small apartment. He was wise enough that he knew their conversation has some level of deception within it. This same pattern was seen among his motions while among students in second grader. during moments of academic competition. And, being the only almond-toned child in the room; he deduced that it was the formation of envy, when he excelled that would disrupt his other classmate from seeing the most important goal of schooling, improving themselves and being self-competitive. Plus, it might bring about his own demise, long before junior high. And, he might have shared the memory from this birth-parent's kitchen with a classmate and the observation that this superior performance was likely a scenario staged for the disruption of harmony within the class. It was most likely the case that the "generator of confusion" was baffling their understanding of concepts that this almond-coated child found "simple":
For God is not [the author] of confusion, but of peace, as in all churches of the saints. [1 Corinthians 14:33 KJV]
The recognition of such behavior and the proper "freeing" of the bound can be a fight. Life has taught that one must help someone detect sin within himself, without openly exposing the appearance of satan's horde. If humans will exact vengeance for the exposure of unscrupulous behaviors, what should we expect from the "demonic spirits". Some feel that this is a means of gathering control over another. Yet, it only destroys the controller. Demons do not work for free. Do you? Why should an entity more evil than one could imagine?
And, calming a beast within someone has led the author in a better direction. With this said, fictional accounts with a work by Langston Hughes, whose publicly reported lifestyle choice would not be approved by the author, noted the physical condition of children who recognized and relished its motion, in Not Without Laughter, which concludes with the paraphrase, we shall all "know" better by and by.
And, the first recognition of demonic behavior came at a time of lost memory. Having a particle board dresser and small thirteen inch television, at an age, that this author would not choose for children if he had such, he was playing with Legos. They would not connect properly; it seemed that something asked, "Do you need some help?;You could be wonder!" Stubborness ignored a voice which was not the author's conscious; after a short struggle with connections that should be made; yet would not hold; he set down the red planks with the "short lyric", "if it does not, fit do not force it just relax and let it go!" And, the lesson learned although not described with a scriptural verse was this.
As with any tasks, the moments of rest and recuperation often let the Lord, and those long forgotten thoughts which might provide insight rise, entering the forefront of the mind. After a few moments, the author connected the planks and continued working.
But, the motivation for placing the work on the carpet with a green pattern of rivulets was his birth-mother rounding the corner of the door entering her room. The fear of being in trouble made him place the pieces on the floor, and the notice of a small outline "fled" from his body. And his mother said, "What are you doing; I saw the devil jump out of you!".
After seven or so years of chaste living, he was speaking with a psychologist, and she made the following statement, "most of those diagnosed with this label do not reach this tier of education. Based upon established diagnostic rules, it is impossible. Your education has saved you! Then, she started talking of the importance of psychotherapy and touting such as a better avenue than medicines!" And, the author with same type of questions which infuriated some of his instructors, asked, "well, would not someone eventually become dependent upon a pyshologist for solving problems that they could do themselves, not that a sound-board is bad; but, it should not be used as crutch for one who is capable of solving a problem themselves." And, a stun look appeared on her face, while a political rally which the author had not heard since the night the air raid sirens sounded in the early 1970s played on a television in the other room of her suite, and a shadow jump from her frame.
Was this a level of spiritual of sensing that was not presence since the age of three of four, a time at which a glass of "undiluted" Coca-Cola would knock him back the way his first swallow of Scotch did? Or, is he simply a stark-raving mad lunatic? Maybe, he is so stark in honesty and sincerity that its has cost him the "financial" rewards, that wisdom has taught have as much value as those who see one as worthwhile of common civilities, if he be possessor thereof.
Betwixt second grade and nearly thirty. detecting this trouble, albeit in blatant forms based upon the scriptures, disrespected and unread by so many in America, was more difficult. The presence of smoke, strong drink, and pornography and the lack of sufficient commonsense that one would walk away from danger. Would not one be wise enough that they would turn and walk away from a pistol, semi-automatic gun, rifle or knife! So, why seek what you do, and question one intelligent enough that he has stepped from the cognitive stupor of the wicked and profane.
When you did stop smoking, although for a short sobriety, did you breathe better? If you look on better media, will not you see more clear! Do you question what you do not understand or have not lived through! For the "adults" in this world, did someone tell you that you might require an injection if you start fornicating, at a time which is unwise! Need another shot!
Deception. Steeped. Deception. Who is the deceived and the deceiver? And, why will you not accept what you have been told?
Search for the answer....
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