The Petty-Battles of Life - Will The Lord Set His Heart on Destroying The Wayward Again....

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America...America...America....The threat of nuclear war loomed for decades, when I was a child. Prayer after prayer, evening after evening, year after year, prayers for another bright morning... This should not be an issue for any child....This my sixth grade instructor said....From those days, I remember a pair of vocabulary words...jovial and jocund....these are a pair of words which should be in every child's vocabulary...and, of course, a part of life...actually, these attitudes should be a common daily lifestyle for each adult.....Mirth is medicine for one's heart...

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Scriptural study plus healthy media, with positive spiritual messages, as defined by Philippians 4...provides the medicine the quietens turbulent issues in one's mind's deep recess.

Below is all the petty issues that one must deal with coursing through a subconscious mind, in this modern America, when one must only concern himself with only meeting his needs long enough, that the Maslow-vian triangle undergirding him does not crumble and remains intact....

.....also, remember my life is exceptionally privileged by American standards.....My greatest issue, as diagnosed by an undergraduate. Is that my greatest personal dream is that everyone knows the happiness that i know....In her opinion, I should not give a "hoot" about anyone..,If I am happy, why should I risk it being concerned about anyone else...

Then,I would remain "happy" and might start enjoying other's misfortune,"ooh you pitiful thing...oooh you're so sweet...yes, you're so sweet, aah, what are you fussing about.....aah, it sucks being you...!They continue in the volume next schizo-volume...

The next portion represents another "schizophrenic" novella, episodic and true, if one can accept it...it was written in twelve hours, if it were a comedy..it would be morbid, yet some simply love reading about, Rick Springfield, Vampires, Toronto, 8675309, you got it, and We television's, early pilots about the USA Today Network....and a debilitated or deranged thought pattern....a smile, oh is not that sweet..now that is crazy, I might be "this, that,  or the other", but I am definitely not crazy....If someone starts associating bumble bee drones with an over the road trucker's murderous choice of killing an annoying fly, traveling in erratic patterns, and believes its a worker solidarity issue, that crazy..go crazy..go crazy..go, yet, if one says, looked the fly will not sting....that is fine German engineering....a humans help humans, in ways that violate social norms for survival, as migrant workers...the final-page...is it crazy making mad, zany, forecast.....

A comment that I told a behavioral health specialist, in the early 1990s, was that I dreamt at an age of about three or four, before entering elementary school....that I made a comment that was deemed as exceptional and unacceptable at my age, the "powder-keg" of the early seventies erupted, when a policeman arrived, and asked for me, I remember seeing  everything immediately, "go black", while the police officer was driving facing forward. I was not shot...Yet, I saw scenes of civil unrest and then awoke. I immediately prayed that the world would not end.....I said I suppose that I have war in me......from some of the controversy which swirled around me my l life in this Public School System......Was this Pygmalion,,,,? Very small towns, close-knit business networks, egos, insecurities, the reluctant guard, and....human behavior..competition,,,,the sins of Vietnam...a Golden Era that was not necessarily golden for the privileged majority....a sense that some must control the complaint,,,,

For those of a legally accountable age, what will we do about ourselves....I am childless, I told this same professional that once my life became stable, I might considering marrying and having children, .... When I found work, medications were forcibly increased, especially, if my performance exceed an acceptable level....I do not know the horrible plight the rest of you have with caring for children in this world.......Something tells me that they are praying every day the this world does not end....where these comment only a childish scare tactic....
Does this community know me...do record exist on me in this school system...when did my performance start declining.....

Most folks grow angry..They say everything seems easy for me...They say that I should see how hard it is for everyone else....maybe it was the training that I had in an public school system that neighbored a classic European-only district gerrymander....And, the saddest truth is some hold secret about excelling in the simplest of mathematics skills, such as, keep doing a few developmental math examples in basic arithmetic regularly....at cash registers and such...write an occasional short passage...read scripture, a historical novel...if one masters the basic skills which should be learnt, by the middle of elementary school....

One can learn the basics of picking up a text, at some point, a doing some basic self-learning....The saddest aspect which I have of the competitive, capitalist society is the competition for all the gold stars....I learnt some thing about playing nice, when doing my second tour in a state hospital, that houses folks who can so more genuineness and cooperative spirit in looking out for each other, a the vulnerable among them, such as an adult with the emotional functioning of a kindergärtner who was duped and committed a crime that carried less time than he spent incarcerated, these gentlemen are some of the best-known "documented" serial-killers in this state since the 1970s. My quest for trouncing opponents stopped when a client of the hospital and I taught each other a lesson....He looked like he had an old wound in his forehead and moved and spoke slowly, yet some simple counting techniques that can be described in shrouded fancy mathematical terms, he could learn rather rapidly...he worked slowly, he learned, I did not crush him..those are children's gloves....I threw a games, we played until a five--five in hands of what prisoners commonly call "bones"....I would mount amazing saves and it would be five:five when all said and done....He grew..learnt...then he gave me the scare of life...and he threw a game for a five:five resolution...in retrospect, if he had threw done the last bone violently, and screamt, "Ha! You.....", I could understand after he had dealt with a life of others being offended when he showed a unique intelligence beyond theirs...and, I would likely have been given a clean bill on health...and, his visible Germanic heritage would have been noted in the silly, non-scientific, social rankings occurring in these public institutions....An notion of emotional quotient arose in the late 1980s, and 'I wonder if its inverted. Is the magnitude of the number important, when a higher score signifies the probability of individual survival in a dysfunctional society. This might represent a cheesy Cheeto mentality, yet does community have any significance....A graduate of Warren Brown at Washington University in St Louis, Missouri...says it is simply canine cannibalizing canine...we have chatted for years, and when conversations about Buffet-ish networks in social services for the enriching of the community, results in the rich getting richer and men spending decades at a shelter, real estate networks cooperating with hospitals, shelters, and well-known charitable organizations..I wonder...He said it is a cannibalizing canine world....He said most, if not all, such organizations are legal examples of racketeering...this is a business-oriented state...remember the days of commodity cheese during the 1980s, it is that wonderful soft, velveteen cheddar found in school lunches toasted with butter...for many Americans, it was considered beneath their station having it in their refrigerator, it was the topic of many jokes...it was the product of Wisconsin farmers simply paid for by the government so they could stay in business....it was reported on the news that it was rotting in bins and being dumped in the sea...that cheese was simply swimming with the fishes...and feeding them....we will not make stereotypes about the Republican party who was dominant then....the business-class would not give it away...did someone use psychology on those black Republicans then...notice the capitalization, signifying the evil-quality of greed, "was the ploy, we can save a few million, place some in an "account", and let those poor "................" eat cheese...As for me and my grandchildren we eat at Le Diplomate....the greatest "open problem" in the history of socioeconomics, currently facing America, is the "dollar division dilemma"....If it brought your cherished only child home....instead of a folded flag....One man who taught me a powerful lesson about using strength, had the strength and speed of a professional athlete in high-school: youthful dreams, college coaches, lures, special supplements....he had the class that he did not crush me, when my 185 lb frame met his 320 lb plus girth and power, I grew stronger and marginally competitive....What is animal-istic?What is savage? I have heard comments, those private insults of when will we break this "machine" from about my high-school years...How many "humans" has it cost...? It is troubling when an "animal-machine"  reasons....an adult humans do not....
When an "animal-machine" shares an insight about one of those simple skills learnt in school such as the skill of approximating the product 31267 and 517980 and says that it is slightly greater than 30000 and 500000 which is 15 followed by 9 zeros .... 15000000000 and then throws in an "obscuring"  estimate of 1515786911, and this near Spock-ish result has baffled someone for years...might cost a African-American his future in any state in this country...and, when he grasps this simple skill, the revealer of a secret that is not one of the greatest mysteries among the antiquities, and a skill that would have been shared if asked, that reveler is given more mind-numbing, thought diminishing drugs, so someone might "straigthen-up" tall in their seat, prop their head up like a rooster, and flex a chicken-head comb.....and, always outperform another in a single task...eternally....the cost of feeling that you have won at least
one argument....how low must this "animal--machine" descend in intelligence...,
when you might have won thousands,,,,,

Look, among certain "individuals" the technique called "hitting someone upside the head" is apparently assumed as a sign of intelligence. It is simply the process of "confusing" someone by making them forget a topic of discussion, when it occurs later...This was falsely assumed as a sign of intelligence, a function of "brain volume", as measured by the unquestionable, greats of psychology, [is this the knowledge that a country based on Christian-values treasures?], it was determined by scientific study that certain lower primates, as measured by the great infallible such and such, had "lesser volumes"  than humans, and further scientific study showed that when certain primates, whether human or other "lower" stations, such as chimpanzees would loses control of their bowels, when frightened..this was assumed, as a pair of related factors....So, if a person could frighten another, and they would lose control of their bowels....this was all that a "scientific" genius needed for the "mutual agreement" style proof...that one result proves  this...Do not get me started on the level of "dopamine blockers" tolerated, which induces incontinence as a side-effect endured in a Texas doctoral program...so a collection of doctorate holders, in a myriad of fields, can be satisfied with establishing the a African American who has a credible performance of above average work is a "monkey". Occasionally, a thirty-year old looks senile, when he knits his eye-brows, neurotransmitters that help the cerebral cortex scintillate also help ears function....and, the malnourished state of most graduate students, who are not adequately supported, effect those electrolytes that attenuate the very "fuels" for those ears, eyes, and their vital sense, except "horse-sense"...Appearances, assumptions, an American history....

Does this sound like savagery; is this unfair, have these words frightened your children, can adults talk....Now this is not a hit....these terms might seem confusing for some...one eyes might blurred..this is the problem which everyone experiences when reading some passage with unknown terms or concepts...Did
anyone ever dare look at a college or graduate school text with strange terms and unknown concepts...when  young....did you eyes blur..did you give up...it is not as issue of height of knowledge of depth of thinking....these are stupid, egoistic concepts showing the shallowness of a educational system found in classical tradition established by men in wigs with more powder on their faces than a Max Factor compact, vanities, an educational system where simultaneous discovery and its "mysterious" occurrence is common ...blurry text simply contains unknown terms and concepts...if you view a Philippino newspaper....and try discerning the meaning of words, not knowing the stylistic writing...the struggle would cause blurring....it is not high...it is simply unknown....know if speak some Spanish....and, someone tells you that a dialect of Spanish is spoken in the many places in the Philippines....does the blurring lessen, recognize a word or nearly so... if you open a text in a subject that you marvel at, but do not know...look at the first paragraph of the first chapter, read it and get a reasonable understanding...would you say, "Wow! I never knew that I was that smart!" Do not start bobbling....find the person, child, "animal-machine", or amoeboid with the lowest possible "intellect" and social standing on Earth and see if it shows any signs of understanding such....would you kill it...would you impair it....would you mortally would it..would you in your supreme intelligence make a senseless random gesture...seeing if it understood, and offended your sense of superiority again...try killing or crippling it....this is the litmus test...of ???? ....interpret it as you will.....

 Let's stop and review this one key point, senseless measures by doctorates of fields who might have spent more time studying the intricacies of those 1960s "daisy-chains"....Titles.....Labels...if a doctorate says such is so, does it make it so....and the feeling that baffling or confusing another so they forget a single thought among many....given over an endless stream on concepts, some which interest for them....and some which are unimportant for them view...remember the concept  of hitting someone upside the head...are you confused..did you forget the great thinkers who deemed this...a sign of greater intelligence...did you forget in this long, long, long stream of ideas, was important...well, it was for me....the art of communication with a "sane" person.....if they drift, say, I thought the topic was..they might say..yes..but, I made a slight transition in though....but, on that topic....thanks for reminding me...let US discuss this...this works well if a pair of communicators, who speak the same language,,,,are truly interested in having a conversation....forgive the computing comment.....it have had very little formal training in network communication protocols, but the rapid modern computing nodes on the Internet, WWW, or in a small common LAN can communicate better than most modern humans, by establishing protocols for exchanging small units of information, the equivalent of concepts, terms, phrase, and idioms....if an idea is lost in transit, not properly ordered when received, or lost on the receiving-side, it is re-requested....this primary-secondary communication....it is done with more skill and quality than common human communication....Should these "lifeless?" uncaring, inhuman, creations of fallible humans,....have domain over this planet, seeing that they communicate with more harmony that the children of ????. God or ( )?

This is if we, may I saw that about a single other human, and I might be confused about the whether I ever have been, based upon world standards....may I say that about a person who is not in my immediate social unit of responsibility....family...How large is family....it is a sea of forgetfulness for most believers in America....

Not breaching a sensitive issue, communication impairment is a 'tell-tale" sign of a schizophrenic....remember MLK, his reference was concerning the conflicting ideals of a societal law and the actual practice....those which we all, the US, that makes "we" excel in Unision....the we who hold internalized, personal beliefs that conflict...they cause internal strife, and ambivalence...the love intermingle with an equal portion of loathing...mutually shared among groups historically defined as different, warring, and immiscible, although Christ blood flowed for us all, miscible describes the regular distribution of "differing" solutions in the same container, such a a skein of water that has become wine,....yet, adults cannot change after they expressed that have "felt" the those of the Holy Ghost and Jesus Love,

A work of historical fiction, a short-episodic story by Langston Hughes, gives an account  of a plantation owner, who has a single mistress, and a house full of servants, his wife was not present, she might have perished,,,her name was Korah, this name, as I have been told has a certain common interpretation among West African languages and stems from Eastern African ones....its meaning is self-deprecating, mistress were often chosen in violent ways....this term has traveled through western tongues, such as English....it is a term used more commonly during years of rapid agricultural growth...the love-loathing dynamic...describes a son, pardon me "illegitimate child", who like most children do not know that certain private behaviors should not occur public places.....this boy would be foolish enough the he would run in the stable, it is literature, and exclaim "Daddy!" when the plantation owner was discussing business with other Europeans..The boy would be immediately knocked on the ground with a "fierce slap"...and called a bastard!....the story shared that this boy was the plantation-owners Benjamin...a most loved and cherished son...he saw himself in his eyes...his son was as headstrong...outspoken...bold....the entire county erupted in a Nat Turner-ish fray and unrest....this occurred when this Benjamin, who was granted a unique privilege, conducting a transaction in the post office in the town.... Wealth, family ties, the reason Historically African American colleges were established, for the  descendants of plantation-owners, not for the "field-slave"....choices in America, being in the house or a overworked,weary hoe.....Know thyself.....this Benjamin dared correct the female postal clerk, when she offered him insufficient change....his protocol should have been: enter the office, approach the window, place the post and currency on the counter, take what was given, and exit, do not say a word, do not make eye contact, do not make physical contact with anyone, an accidental bump is deemed unacceptable....he spoke, made, the proper correction....she fainted...he barely escaped the post office with his life, the other customers, men, exclaimed what did he do!...his crime was adding in the negative.....levels of complexity not tolerated from a Benjamin....who was a described as closely, physically resembling "his European father". In slang, "Sometimes it be-is like that"....

This might have been the straw that made my employability deemed impossible by the predominantly European cohort of behavioral health professionals, who dare question the pantheon of European intellects in the sciences, those held in higher esteem, based upon historical measured behaviors, than El-Olam.....This straw that disrupted economic flow, the sustenance of a single person and, a world, if it can be accepted, a straw that might have reaped lives, the result of conflicting human free-wills, all conflicting with God's Perfect Will, all men be saved,...a straw of misconstrued intellectual power, exhibited after a week of slipping in and out of that vessel, donning Castor and Pollux, on a sea of whiteness, the effect of few yellow slivers from a long centipede's orange feet...a rapid dehydration..285 lbs...235 lbs.....a double dose of Tazering.....after skimming 150 pages of Seth Warner in an afternoon, a realizing, if I had learnt the cryptic mathematical short-hand notion in high-school, I would have immediately understood, Oh! Many of these topics were taught before the end of my junior year....it is like the Phillippino script....the frightened look of nurses, an unneeded over-constriction of a blood pressure cuff and a few unneeded defribulation...a overhead camera....the Taser-ings...the problematic lucid speech after falling unconscious for ????...the account of VUMC.....the assertive request for cessation of a medical treatment, that is needed....Why? anyone chest heave when they might have heard truth which they could not handle..did anything pop....a perfect social Contrarian strategy...does this establish intelligence..is it a battle of intelligence...simple solutions from the simple baffling the lettered and esteemed...the wise baffled by foolishness...spiritual discernment versus what the "carnal-nautral-ungroomed" man shall never understand...the quest for more power: financial, computing, and social, when paucity produces innovation, resourceful, when one must ask Lord how will this be possible, what must I do, how can this be achieved.....the straw shown after receiving monthly dosage, after monthly dosage, of numerous psycho-reactive neuroleptics, limiting dopamine and serotin, in a short few days.....lips turning blue, finger tips, food..the bag of potato chips, fresh fruit, and water....requested from a birth-mother and delivered...before the Taser-ing....the remark undecipherable by the Medical Director of those Klaserich...Thou He slay me, yet will I trust Him.....humans do not detect capitalization when heard...and, if he ever spent the time reading Job...I would be pleasantly surprised!...When someone does not say, are you offend...if they hear "evil begets evil".....educated fools..men who understand not Proverbs 6:12-14(KJV)..our scoundrels have a physical manifestation...and are spiritual, ephemeral...understanding this is 95% of the battle....When a man works in conjunction with spiritual forces and calls it, biofeedback.....he is studying the wrong text.....this is a class of physician whom would assume that losing track of a long explanation spanning decades, starting in with a hospitalization that should have never occurred...would constitute tangible "mutually-established" sign of lower intelligence, when Shuette, Shoe-it, Shootie, Shoot, whatever she calls her self besides psychiatrist, can remember the year that this first hospitalization occurred. Did I hit her upside her, Whoops upside her head....Look, this is my assessment of the situtation, she cared as much about me as those offended by comments or my YouTube DeMolay Handshaking Mix......And, the man who escaped the towers by the the mere "time and chance" that the Lord says occurs in every life, or the unique guidance of the Hand of God..his struggles afterward...the families who have mourned.....the assessment, she did not care enough that she would listen...nor did physician Housel who I dealt with in 1991-1995+, consistently saying this treatment is not necessary....I am hoping that I do not embarrass VUMC..If I have understood a single thing, public embarrassment...Look! the boy tries doing everything right, when we lured in our home in the neighborhood, he never moved from the coach in the den or living-room, never crossed a boundary...Look that silly mangy mutt of mine would be all over the house...I cannot speak for the hated..it is costly....if someone does not care enough that they will listen, ask questions, or redirect someone when the conversation derails..do they care about communicating, at all,....a hint of schizophrenia, now, that might sound offensive; it might only be how you hear it.....not how it is intended....

This perceived intellectual insult, based upon, the grand knowledge of modern psychology...was it well-founded?.....would she have been granted an endowed chair at Harvard Medical Center in Behavioral Health, for not being the least-bit concerned about my well-being or  life, simply another never-ending sucker "oooh sweety-kins", maybe this shows the grand intelligence in America.....

My determination, a physician has determined that I shall never work again....the only "long-term" opportunity that I was graciously granted, office cleaning..working with a company called TEAM Software's sister, FBG Services...,and, I was offered that typical con, a position in management at a company that employs mostly minimum wage workers, you have a can-do attitude, you are so bright, and all this after a few months, ahead of a co-worker, African American female, who has more seniority, is looking for a raise, is maintaining a household, and working a second job, the architectural firm staff is simply so accepting of me and my educational background, when I was not called in for an interview, upon applying a year or so earlier, with more measured formal  education than, possibly the CIO, and introduce more computing insecurities within the female IT manager, love that poise, than measurable, and all the oohs and aahs..wait was this creating social tension within a group....for a position that would have been the equivalent amount of work..65-70+ hours..at a salary less than that earned with the weekly hourly overtime...Hunt..Peck...Think...That is the con of such positions,,,Less is More...One Pizza...or a couple of Pizzas..Pizza...Pizza...Little Caesar...Smart Monkey....And, seeing that Team Software is a Microsoft Partner...with a little more feigned racial tolerance....the DNA Storage issue could have been handled
discreetly....The issues of public embarrassment! Certain humans are beyond saving, at least, in economic and professional terms, this property transfer will likely, be discreetly handled in civic court, small claims, when Team Software sues for ownership of any intellectual property on my technical web-logs, ...seeing that I would clock-in, spend a couple of hours on a technical project....take a nap, show-up at my second cleaning assignment early enough that I could clock-out, and get my work and occasionally part of the work of my supervisor done past the scheduled ending time...This is not a poor me story...this is that, if it were not true, it would be a crying matter story, this is absolutely hilarious...in the spirit  of the old phrase, "really-doe...umph!" The only problem with Team Software claiming ownership of the rights on the likely better DNA Storage technique is Google owns the contents on every web-log, or at least they should....I am certain this not of any real consequence...what have losses been in this petty-battle....

See how when some seems offended that one looks over opportunities that others dream of having....it might not be right for them....it is a unique navigation path one must find....Life from another's vantage might shed valuable light on a situation another cannot see....I truly could not have handled the management opportunity....life in the house was not all that thrilling..being among those in the field might be much better...I would never take a management position,  and, especially if it was only a signature power position..I have interviewed with those types, they basically guided by a single senior engineer, who is making all of the managerial decisions...I would rather a head that figures than a figure-head.

Yet, the architectural engineering staff, some of which bit, on that, he just wishes, he were one of us...that be careful about over-working yourself...one might need a vacation...the issues of civil rights and hiring a person, whose skill-level one is well-aware, giving, yet him another task, in a languages, using packages with which he is unfamiliar, performing certain tasks which he has not yet learned, and finding some justification for handing him another person's work, who understands delegation, because she identifies those who have the skills for doing the job....and then disaster strikes...yet, was the promoted project manager demoted after this failed identification of adequate talent, on what was "a maiden" attempt at project management....yet, the consultant, or was it contractor, or was it "grossly-overpaid" temporary employee...on a dare I say  "maiden attempt" at compensated consultation...stegosaurus crytopgrahy, a near steganographic ciphering or orange shag carpet near 1987....if it does not cost anything it must not have value...such as the question who approves project timelines, who demands work must, be done, was some interested in hearing, "I cannot do this, tears..frustration..facing another few weeks or months in a shelter, or on the street, once again so someone can exclaim, "we pooped it, it is  an idiot-monkey"...First, putting a person in a task, which they honestly say, this might not be the best opportunity....and, the client who is fully aware of it...gives more work than officially assigned...Did not I say that the learning curve might be more than I could meet, but I would do my best....and, when a project manager, offers me her work, as soon as, she sees me take my first few fifteen minute breaks, after a few weeks of work, figuring that I am reasonably confident that my single portion of task can be completed in the twelve weeks...I accept it although, adequate testing has not been completed, documentation written,...where does the crime rest on whose shoulders, report a violation of the civil rights act, wait the whights have been acting civil, when they are sincere, they must be fined, such is a violation of American decency.....

That same assignment placed in the hands of an engineer with five or ten recent years of experience with a particular language and its evolution and the associated packages, libraries and such.....maybe three days or less depending upon the knowledge of software architectures, database modeling techniques, and a cachet of "reusable code-snippets" from similar assignments, called the templates...Yet, I underestimate, the time needed, one never knows the intangibles, the life issues, that strong black cup of coffee...why do I feel so sad..maybe it is, something in that cup of coffee, yes I am quite certain...This is memorable, lives which could never have been cost, because a certain class of animal gets thrill when the harms a larger more powerful man, who might have certain strengths, which are enviable....is it David versus this Goliath, it depends upon one's perspective...

Ever see mighty bowanas, from a place such as waxahacthie force a Black panther, that is a feline, who has been a tamed pet since birth, from the back of pick-up, point shotguns at it, all ten or so, of those might big game hunters, dare I say all-European,.... and, went it looks puzzled, and wonders are you playing on tossing me a large spindle of yarn, then the fire at it, wound and  kill it, then do that..We Bad, Uh Huh! Silver Streak struck....And, tell stories of killing a passive creature, whose natural power they would not dare tussle with....that has been taught that he can trust a human....Look, the puma or such did not run...

Interesting, any know about body counts oversea, the bags, zipped up....is that simply propaganda..is this an unneeded war for economic gain...market manipulation....Or, is someone bitter about not being capable of doing something one single tasks.....when it seems....everything was so easy for him..before...did anyone say you will not graduate college...Dr. Tyler..Baylor UMC DFW Fall 1988, can you charge a person, who you diagnosed with a serve debilitating disease after a five minute conversation,....was it my use of must or did Jolene roll by and tell a lie....did you lose any children in a  mother of All Wars, that really should have never occurred....do your itchy ears..like hearing Whites are much smarter than this including the black Whites....think about that one you will sort it old it is a old "neo-logism",,,schism... 

Anyone get tired of me with confidence, Vandy ain't #@$!, who made $#(* that simply can never stink ..smelly oh so pretty  and ever-so siddity....keep oyour hand on my wallet CS department, I am taking a nap....Feeling Rosey, anyone....
It is interesting that when a mixture of exasperation, mis-handled medication, which should have never been given, the overworking that is typical of Whights, collide and someone feels a blade,...the Omaha Community is so nicey-nicey.....I do not watch much television, many in Omaha are insisting that I must do what I am told, they are not interested in a suggestions, the boy follows me and my orders..Such an idiot cannot reason sufficiently for being a part of an control, especially Washington politics, although it might simply be so we can  make them look as if they are part of a terrorist network....

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Well, if the "coloured" Alexander Haig circa 2017 says, hey, the situation is not as bad as it looks, do not worry I am control...I will fix this..would you, personally, worry...would America worry....If he said, I am in charge...We is safe!.....Would President Trump close the can of worms which should have never been opened.....Then, did I make him issue a cease-war action command....or should that be a stop..quit..do not do me like that.....or should it be,

"Look, we have gotten our tails whipped in a battle that we should have never started... We should show the level of class, integrity, and character that any grown man, who has children, any of whom he would hate losing fighting a battle that started in a previous Republican administration....When a person has more might, tolerating small loses although they might be embarrassing, shows the type of leadership a classic conservative and champion of family values, the very ideals which make America the Greatest  Nation on Earth, those which are at the very soul of the Republic Party and its Agenda, the type of leadership-vision that he should have... for the sake of the young children who hear news reports, albeit in their "sweet slumber" and their young impressionable minds struggle with fears of destruction and imminent doom that we as a globe have been working diligently at resolving peacefully for decades..We have seen older arsenals of weaponry, both nuclear and non-nuclear, dismantled, while examining our countries interior infrastructure's stability and ensuring the safety of every American citizen... The greatest cannot win every war that it enters...We were wise enough that we entered with numerous available exit strategies...despite propaganda this action was not contrived, or an effort at manipulating markets, the American agenda is the protection of democratic ideals throughout the globe, so peace, harmony, and economic opportunities flourish......For the sake of America's children and those in the countries in which we are fighting, who might become fast-friends based on the history of wars in the last century....Our immediate goal is meeting with key decision-makers on both sides of the conflict and negotiating a peace-able solution....."
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Pettiness mixed with glimmers of reason below....


In unison '78 second grade....I made you do that...I made you do that.... Jynx....
 I am tired of all this big talk...will some Biscodyl in your cabbage help you understand....all of Texas is watching, Oh are we on camera..Check it out...Check it out...Is not sad seeing grown men cry "Oooh Baby..Look All Those Sweet Tears..." A medic in Desert Storm, that Lightening Blitzkrieg that proved American dominance any military might, the war almost ended before it started....his testimony was that grown men wear shedding tears, when the chemical weapons suits, did not properly seal,  and Saddam dropped a barrage of Scud missiles...now another short-stint of this "repeat-offense of daring accept any kindness or concern from another", in this America, is not the same as fighting in a war-zone.....yet, the strong survive....this natural selection...a person gets "unofficially" one chance at help, at most shetlers in the city....then they are deemed game-playing free-loader....a placed on a special-list....getshard this when tethered "thorough-bred" whipped and driven until it dropped, from a coronary....it usually expels it bowels....frequently before the collapsed, ranking of intelligence....would PETA call UNMC, VUMC, BUMC, CHI-Health same old-Allegiant team, with a new name, like the Ginsu....Ginsu 2000 knives, whose quality did not meet the warranty.....Modesto Medical Center..is this slow enough for you.....for starters....
If ask a question of some called a  scizophrenic

The Lord's Breath That Structures - US!

May this upcoming week be blessed! Genesis states we should subdue and replenish the Earth. We are called husbandmen, tenders of the plant and animal life. But, we sure could learn from the "dumb" and occasionally, assumed "stupid" animal life! Although television misconstrues and misrepresents reality at times, one, of the most interesting examples of cooperation among the same species of differing shades, was seen on educational television in this area in the mid-1980s. Apparently, mankind's "advance" which has disrupted natural migration patterns produced a unique form of cooperation between the small, brown, and "grousey" deer found in the historical temperate grasslands and the taller, plumper, arctic-coloured deer found nearer the polar circle. Well, it seems that survival from the treacherous attacks of the natural, carnivorous predators and the mixture of travel between verdant grasslands and "snow-packed" plains has resulted in the those who hide well in the tall maiden-hair grass and short blue-green blades surrounding and protecting their notice-able lieges; the converse arrangement of protection occurs when in snowy regions. Smart, huh? It keep them alive. Now, who comes so he might steal, kill, and destroy?

One must be careful about believing media broadcast! The next few lines are PG. This I should have put in some of the previous post!

Being nearly fifty and walking among the sins of this life in America, Hollywood tailors media for markets the way General Motors does vehicles. Some of the exploitive films of the 1970s and 1980s that were given a R, restricted, rating, required a state identification card signifying one was over eighteen years of age. One film that depicted a bold, loud talking mack, called the Dolomite, depicted him showing deference for his single blond-haired, blue-eyed harlot who spoke in a "baby-ish" way while he overworked and exploited a slew of afro-crowned, browne-eyed harlots! This was inverted in international markets who would rather see otherwise. Truth be told, little in the American media market has been tailored for the viewing interest of the average African-American. In the mid-1980s, BET made a feeble effort, but it started well, deteriorated substantially. We have never had great programming. Remember the Cosby's, a doctor and attorney, who never taught old Theo how he could budget by the age of seventeen. Now, did they ever let him handle money. That was one of my favorite examples of the subtle parodies in the media. Now, let's stop and be smart about who we deal with this! And, nearly every White-wing Republican would have jumped out of a window and a missile launch would have been called for just west of NORAD, had George Jefferson had mortgage deed burning during the last episode, exclaimed these White tenants work for me now, duck-strutted as he always had, and said, "C'mon Louise, let's celebrate!". Now, for those who do no know, that term Dolomite, was held in high -esteem among the privileged, suburban in American. It was an expensive commodity used in landscapes among the fine house and those that dreamt of being such in the "special" neighborhoods in American. Anyone stroll by the hills in Italy, lately? Are they called the Pyrennes? Well, dolomite stones are as common as grains of sand in the Mohave or Sahara. And, low and behold, a late 1970s classic about the backwood hicks of Georgia was completely different depending upon the
edition seen. The harlot living near the creek had a heavy-set, pot-bellied good 'ol country squire that chased the group of ruffians out of his home with a shotgun, when he walked in on them. One other edition of the film had a stereotypical tall, svelte African American male, a buck, chase the entourage away with a long machete.

The "jokers" in Hollywood film numerous takes, so they might sell a product which anyone with the money who want the media can buy! Now, forgive me for making "light" of  this industry. It is cold-hearted and not a joke! It has destroyed many more lives than it has produced "wealthy" stars. For one, if some well-known mainstream actor has a fortune in US dollars and is nearly unrecognizable without a make-up artists help, why do they not "cash-out" and settle in a modest place. Life being an everyday person, who is modestly healthy and whole, is not that horrible! Remember that country classic by Kenny Rodger's, any career pursuit is a gamble!

Saddest aspect of modern media, most of the corporate giants who distribute and some who produce the most "God-fearing" of music, literature, and film also make available the most unhealthy of pornographies! Let's not forget one who was simply hated because he was an Asian Buddhist, during the Vietnam War, and dared protest pornography in San Fransisco, of the Harvey Milk days! Has life much changed! Can some spot a friend! Is it his complexion, hair-texture, the faith his parent's gave, what he calls himself or his walk? Wait some say, "I know how dogs walk! I know they will follow anyone who feeds them and are friendly! I know that hat they will stay where they can find shelter! A Vietnam Veteran, who worked in intelligence training point-dogs told me that if you hang them from a tree for forty minutes, they will do what they are told, if they can breathe when they are released! I know that they keep coming back and smiling at you after you have abused them throughout the years which you have know them! Man's best friend they are! Wait, a "genius of shockology" once said that the term "God" is inverted! I wonder if he inverts scripture when he reads it? Now, "strange fruit' was hanging on trees in the South, simply because a lady had worked a very long day and decided that she would not move, when a big strong men felt that she relinquished her seat, and find one in the back of the bus. It would be really tacky bringing up color issues, in this modern-area. And, dare I say that while working at local architectural firm in the last couple of years, as an part-time office cleaner so I might fund a "non-profit" web-project, only a few days after suggesting that motion sensors be place on the outside of blind doors and a signal light on the interior, so others might avoid being K.O. the way that I nearly was on many occasions while cleaning, I arrived early one evening and a former nurse, who consults on medical center building projects, memory lend-a-hand, screan we will kill a "n-g-e-" for this. Really. Louisiana hit a few days later! Is that type of reasoning from any African American that embarrassing! I rarely watch news, local or national, yet I catch a glimpse once and a while. How does a police officer make that quick of a 'medical determination"!

Now, on the topic of another troubling thought that keeps surfacing, I spied an article in the early 1990s in this locale about likely the youngest member of my sophomore class. I am not sure, if he was simply assaulted or killed. Or, what the actual issue is? Strange coincidences occur, his name was T Martin. And, of course, an old high-school instructor, had the name G. Zimmerman. The coincidences in life. I entered tenth grade at an old fourteen; I believe he was a young fourteen. I did not read the entire article, but most will not jump on me at nearly fifty years old and around 6'4'' 250lbs. T might have been about 5'3'' in Sky-Force Nikes. The types of soles that do not wear after "four years" of regular athletic activity.

During the first day of an Honors class, we did a quick English grammar review, and as usual, with an outspoken nature, I took the lead in answering. He was overwhelmed by the rapid answers and students, most of which were older than us and bigger than him. And, we were the only spots of chocolate-pudding in the sea of a whipped-cloud. In actuality, many of the students did not answer, and, from the work seen in subsequent weeks, most were not "well-equipped" or prepared. So, they could not answer, as rapidly as, some students. I am quite sure that he was a "fairly-gifted" student being in that particular class. I noticed him on occasion in the halls; I was always in a "deep zone" focused on my daily academic tasks. And, while seeing the television-programming of the "senseless attack" in Florida, memories occurred concerning this article.

Could someone be harmed for simply being of truly average intellect, as we both are. We were simply wise enough, that we complied with authority-figures when asked, did our homework most of the time, probably were both highly inquisitive, and probably watched tons of educational broadcasting: documentaries, Nova, and other such media.That was what makes average "joes" professional academicians.

Now, revisiting the topic of deer, the most unique and realistic dream of being such occurred during those days, in the Fall or Spring of a school year. I dreamt of surviving many Winter weeks; the grass became sparse for us "grousey-toned" deer. It seemed that my body slowly adjusted and my blood became like "anti-freeze". When, after not eating for days, a few green sweet sprigs were found, and without knowing what I saw, an albino-deer of the "same-size" nuzzled beside me and started nibbling. I was completely "spooked" and drove it away.

Without a long description of the days which ensued, the single albino was long gone, deceased or surviving, as an Omega or with a pack whom could accept it.
I was with all of my friends who knew me by name, J. Cheers! The day after seeing that fateful symbol on a "steel-grey" sky, we were eating near a tree; a quaternion, each looking in a direction N, S, E, W. I was so focused on that sweet tall grass. The alarm sounded and "Run, J,B,K,L", we all had simple names!

Well, a pair of woodland tigers snagged me around the jugular, pressure was felt blackness enveloped my consciousness, and that was it! Truth be told, He is equitable, in dreams, as in life! During that Spring, I came across a very, small patch of strawberries and ate nearly all of them, until K,B, or L discovered me.

They said, "J, do not be so greedy! J found strawberries!" Look, the geniuses who claim that they can measure "intelligence", say that such animals are about as bright, as a three or four year old. Remember Sesame Street, "cooperation". Now, look at Genesis !; And watch out for "Whosoever therefore shall humble himself as this little child, the same is greatest in the kingdom of heaven." This was stated by Christ. Children are quite smarter than adults can accept or will openly acknowledge, when the evidence of such is realize it. Otherwise, the Kingdom of God would not be as such! Few children would find sticking paper in
their mouth and lighting it on fire! Smart! 

Now, many adults who were "stupid" enough that they did the same at some point, in this country, will likely force the same on a child, in fact, their own child who cares enough, that they keep telling them that they should quit.

On the other hand, they could wake up every morning and say, "Look!  I hate you! I expect this amount in allowance for tolerating your nonsense! I demand my college tuition! And, that trust fund better be available by my thirteenth birthday!" The biggest issue causing the conflict is that they "care".

Now, ownership is a "bidirectional" street:

Thou shalt also consider in thine heart, that, as a man chasteneth his son, [so] the LORD thy God chasteneth thee. [Deu 8:5 KJV]

He that spareth his rod hateth his son: but he that loveth him chasteneth him betimes. [Pro 13:24 KJV]

For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth. [Heb 12:6 KJV]

If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not? [Heb 12:7 KJV]

When a child is told, "Look, this is between me and you" upon misbehaving in second grade...And, he assumes he is catching a "wholloping" with the nearest belt! His mistake is reasoning based on history and not understanding what is actually being said!

When, the best twelve year old "body guard" he can find, for walks between home and school out of fear that he will windi up in a ditch, in a neighborhood where he is unwanted! And, the body guard totes his mother's .45 in his lunch-box, but threatens him when his accidental kick of the steel container causes a discharge, and the older child must explain the large hole when in school that day. And, this "simple" boy's father tells the bodyguard's family the same, ownership plus the collective, harmonious community-spirit guided by the Holy Ghost that help secure a foot-hold a decade or so early in Selma, becomes a question! Makes one pause many years later, FO?

So, the question is can one handle the enemy in a me, the one in the unit which should be united. Networks...Human networks...Get ready......

Now, on the topic of child-like genius found among the "simple", "not stupid!", "simple". Pardon, the "weighted" boxing gloves, these are only used on children in America, the adults, wink, nod, and slap each other on the rump with "kid-gloves", and say, now, if you get caught, that is on you! I do not know anything about this. See you at the next "after-party". Who is bringing the "fish bowl"?

This might be that "phantom Ali-like punch"! For, all of those who should have never accepted that "smoke" from your "cool" friends. What did he or she look like? Xactly...the local slang for the Bresslerian colloquialism "gar". What was their personal walk? Has that "devil" let you go? Did you toss that "monkey" on anyone else's back? How many men have you made fall, getting retribution for your own "stupidity"!

Then, keep placing monkies on every back that will accept it. What does this produce, a community which is "jaded and bitter" at a younger and younger age! Scripture says "evil begets evil", King Saul! Pardon the paraphrase, in my "limited" mental capacity, might I say, "Stupidity creates stupidity!".

Folks, it ain't always been this way! If you accept the Scriptures! Every community was not a Sodom; Tyre and Sidon could repent! Nineveh straighten up and flew in formation. And, "stupid and evil" is a dangerous combination for world leadership!

That is an opinion crafted in the "Land of Free Speech". Yet, from life's experiences this must mean that one can reuse a popular class report, until the national language of a country changes.

Where any of those who been laden with monkies "family", your own children....

When questioned, do you always say, "you do not know what I have been through! You do not know what my life is like! You do not know the "hellish" existence that I live...." Be, at least as loving as, the rich man Lazarus! 

Look, forgive me for the Joy the Lord has given me. I told you life has been "Grrrrreat!" Now, shortly before floating on that sea of "white" unconsciousness in 2006, my prayer was that someone or someones, somewheres, who has been struggling for years, doing everything appropriately gets some of the very blessings, which I am hated for having, and enjoy some of what flows from an unfathomably deep reserve of His Blessings! Forgive me Lord, if this interrupted what You were preparing them for! It is not my place that I control others. Yet, if some could only control themselves, where might we all be.... they are called behavioral health professionals! Surely, they know the value of sugar!

Now, this prayers timing coincides with some unique events in my life! If I know my Lord, Our Liege, three folks might be seeing a modest prosperity, my "hometown" could never accept me having.

Now, y'all it sure ain't me with my broken, raggedy, offerings and oblations. Look, if the sight of a golden snake, a creature that has very few positive references in scriptures, can aid a sick community, trust that He might have answered this, which might have been a mutual prayer. And, if you know these "three", let me tell you the touch of that Holy Ghost is phenomenal! Luke 11:11(KJV) Use your blessings wisely! And, the rest, please let them be!

When one has a "half-sies" mentality ( Let US "divy" up this lunch in equal portions ), and he holds very few "material possessions" closely plus will offer others knowledge of various "opportunities" in which he is not interested or not in a position where he can reap the harvest from them, simply, because "silver" and "goal" tarnishes. And, he sees the result of this consistent behavioral pattern, and the  historical response from those, who say, "You never have been without. That is why you will give away what others so readily lie, cheat, steal, and kill for." Wait, at least, seventy hours on that sea of white unconsciousness and possibly, nearly a total of seven days, drifting between this world and that "whiteness" plus a "fifty-pound" body-water loss, all-from centipede venom. In a one bedroom apartment surrounded by many tenants, once wandering in a bewildered fashion for five or so minutes, heard and seen by my neighbor, Ms. Soto, before collapsing on a mattress again, ...  the non-Americans understand this is not that New Jerusalem. Those who have consistently said, this author is the blame for this or that, it is not "my" fault! Those will exclaim that this is the Lord's Justice, because he dared question scripture, as he was taught! How do you read Matthew 5:17-20 (KJV). Would you contradict His Command! (John 1:1) Well, he wonders if this community's back-filling will include a mouthful of gravel!

Trust me, I have never suffered or loss what the vast majority of those outside these borders experience, and many inside these boundaries and this very town.
And, as my behavioral profile from my "marginal" Stanford application's essay will show, I take ownership of group problems when the fans starts throwing of worm-castings, I try uniting the group by accepting "responsibility" for the problem and say that I will do my best at resolving it, without assigning any blame.Then, if a potential solution is found, on occasion many cycles of problem-solving efforts must occur, the key-sentence is "Let US see what we can do about this!"...And, when all is said and done, the closer is, "Look, Tress, [or whoever might the key team member and have the greatest liability], you have done an outstanding job at resolving this! Do I know your family, they look like the same ones who were in the wallet that I bought at TJ Maxx a year ago?" From, the age of kindergarten, not having any siblings until 10, this has been common.

When the dirt starts shooting in every direction and everyone dodges and ducks and the management calls everyone in on a carpet the size of a sample from Stainmaster, fingers head in every direction. This I remember also was part of a conversation held above an Applied Communications Incorporated corporate apartment in 1994 or 1995! I leased this same "lower-floor" apartment, known for a annual broken-pipe during the freeze and thaw cycle, shortly before interning at this TSA company in the Spring of 1996. I dreamt of being a international traveling AZTEC consultant.

ACI "won" a bidding-round for designing the first Automated Teller Machine network in this country. They, and their spin-off companies, control a majority of this network world-wide. Ironically, the man who won the bid was hired by the "first loser", the wealthy interests who became TSA. It seems that they felt that he had a better design for "quality and reliable delivery" of banking services.

Now, he was famous for coming out his garage with a shotgun in a well-respected neighborhood of "multi-million" dollar homes around the early Fall of 1993. It was  "start-up" post-swinging "seventies", the slogan was "we work hard" and "play harder"....Apparently, along the way, one of his "friends" at work
offered him some meth-amphetamines. It seems that some feel this will induce a diagnose-able "insanity", if taken over time. Well, I am not sure if this man is alive  or what his health condition is.

Now, an acrid,  "clowne-ish" twist of fate, that is completely a coincidence, I was attending a local state school, after being shown the door at VU with those subtle country-hints one learns in rural America. When treated like a teammate, one knows he is on the team, despite being on a roster, I was never on the team. Mostly likely, I had become an uncover-able debt in the Sunny Skies of 9/5/1988 on the seventh floor of a tall black tower, near the old science building and library, which was part of the number seven medical school in the country. And, as such, I had been called "insane" for at least five years.

Now, the strangest of coincidences, my eye caught the article about this ACI Principal in the local paper. And, my life's circumstances sent me at a barrage of cops and a SWAT Team through a garage of an ignited home brandishing a deer rifle with a frozen action! The precipitating factors, a percolated cup of coffee, whose tray held a triple dose of Folders or Sanka, the resultant jitters, and a physician who gave me a twenty milligrams of that "classic" Elvis killer that exacerbates the "feelings of nervousness" in amounts over one milligram. Upon on arrival at the hospital, that wonderful dose of a one milligram Ativan calmed my agitation instantly. The same dose that was part of a three tablet combination, which permanently restored my faculties at VUMC on 09.05.1988.

1977 was as far from my memories in 1993, as the Bunger at Safeway about 1974 or 75, at VU in 1988 before the conditioning fiasco, or in future days, keeping account a Prism Resources in 1998, and managing the financials for Breaking Ground Landscaping in 1999. Some my "Clowne Persona" is birthed from coincidence.

And, the egoistic, grandiose, and unbelievable, and unacceptable statement which follows was a distant memory circa 1978 0r 79 of walking near a bank location, that now holds a Joe's Crab Shack with my birth-father and making one of those "simple" obvious statements that might be costing me a "ridiculous price" for simply being helpful. The lines, or queues as the British say, were exceedingly long in most banks, at the time. A single line filtered in and one or more tellers addressed the transactions of the next customer. A run by the bank could be mean thirty minutes in its lobby, in those dinosaur days! Well, children, imaginations, and "simple" intuition...Those were the Battle-Star Galactica, R2D2, C3P0 [protocol android] Days! Robots has captured mens imagination since before the Lost In Space serial of the mid-19690s. We all can draw the conclusion...Coin vending machines, that could process $1 or $5 (US) had been around for a while, in American cafeterias, car washes, and laundromats. Certainly, an engineer in those days of "data processing" could build one that handled simple withdrawals and deposits! These were the most common transactions for most workers.

Look, children are extremely bright, and most adults whose minds are not filled with often needless issues and worries, have the available computing capacity for finding that menu item in 3 pt font of a McDonald's menu
at twenty feet. They very one which one orders nearly every time he visits that eatery. Let them help you. It does not represent a loss of control, signal stupidity, or indicate illiteracy. So, the "menu-hunt" test establishes this! So, if you can look beyond the use of "I". Because, positive notoriety usually coincides with the future rapid "free-fall" of B.I.G. notoriety and the never-ending, negative press coverage. Look, if one has the stomach for it, knock yourself out! I have a delicate constitution! If life points one anywhere, look up for that constant craving Cincinnati! Anyone have a witness!

Mostly likely, someone said, "Hey, I am tired of doing housework, homework, and forty+ plus hour per week piecey-job! Well, Mom! Why do not we get a servant robot!" These have been in production for decades and likely stem from science fiction novels of the 1950s. Much like those "Android-based watches' and that old Tracy detective cartoon! Great-minds! Well, those who can relinquish staking that claim of "first", if it means "lives" will be ruined, might be smart! That is puzzling logic, huh! Never much mastered it. Yet, I took my first course from an Oxford or Cambridge graduate and did not pass!

How smart could I be! Just keeping trying! Course textbooks, and especially, Scripture is much richer, revelatory, and rewarding on subsequent study.
 
Now, many in academia say that they forget the simplest of fundamentals when they advance in learning. So, reviewing the basics is wise, whether in one's profession, man's knowledge or True Wisdom. Start with Exodus 20. And, reading Proverbs 1 - 31, one per day, is wise!

But, all I hear is "Grow up! Do what you are told!"! Here is a mystery. As a child, I was highly-compliant as my academic record shows. For those who chase academic goals, I have "tossed-out" many academic mementos some would cherish and talk about for a life-time! Question? Why do some drop their trophies!? Have you sang that old song, lately?

Some accomplishments and trinkets are not worth having, if one must lie, cheat, steal, and be a quiet and complicit part of the mayhem and murder called "competing". The "how one plays the game stuff" is for children! The Lord's Kingdom is for who...Well hopefully, I grow up and "Get Smart!", as I have been told!

I shall put it like this! When exploring beyond that "hill and dale", venturing in new "uncharted areas", did you ever cross an "unknown boundary" and say, "Wow, that is!" Whether an easy or difficult journey, the conclusion might be, "That is all that here!" The journey taught a lesson, prepared one for the next day, and let one see the "silliness" of certain conquest, considering the long-term cost.



As said, a life of complying with authority worked wonders for reaching goals.
So, I know when being compliant is appropriate and when deviating is wise! I have accepted "poor-quality" advice, not considering the source, traveling that "second-mile" of a dry-river bed with "evil humans". It has had its costs!
 And, during a compliant youth, when I made "simple" statements out of a "child-like" love and concern, I was told that, "What!", when I was, at the legal age of consent, I could do what I wanted...make my own decisions plus deal with the consequences of my words and actions!

Yet, I am nearly fifty! And, all I hear is "Do what you are told!" You would not have these problems, if you listened. Certainly, like when I was offered Steriods and declined during high-school. I would have never seen college-football, or college. A felony drug-charge, such as Steriod-use, prevents one from receiving a financial aid package, although it might be a full academic scholarship. One must discern what is wise from what is sinful.

It might be the issue that we all hate being "figured-out". Europeans American cannot accept hearing intelligent comments from the "duskier" Americans. Some would destroy any and every trace of "dark-toned" African innovation in their homes and lives! They will accept another White European as an expert in a subject without checking credentials. Watch-out for that classic sales pitch, "Look, I will make you this offer, but I would not do it for one of them!" And, when the "town-idiot", whose village does not ever wanting him back, claims that he might have indirectly provided the "original" thoughts on a number of successful products innovations, some in the international markets, simply so he might show that All-Americans might find themselves in a similar "medical" situations, something is amiss with the ruckus surrounding me at times. Why would some scoff and, then, be exceedingly polite, when says credible person says, " I think that he might be telling the truth". Smiles and friendly times occur for a person, whom some feel might have extreme financial wealth on the horizon! Faces, whom I recognize, yet have not seen in decades, seem offended that I do not know their names  or remember the total of twenty-hours we spent talking within fifty years of life. Then, the admonishment comes, why did you not speak with me more. Yeah, it is my fault once again. It seems that I have been type cast as a pariah! It is him! Hate that, Guy! Funniest meeting which I overheard! Now who was that being projected from audience view...Oh, me! It seems that it is most comfortable for many others, when I am hated!

And, as said earlier, why would anyone with any level of social class question an "insane" person about the validity of his claims! it be the same as debating a toddler, in Bugs Bunny PJ's! Uh Huh! Yeah, I did! Na. Na. Na. I am not listen! I did! I did! Uh Huh! Are any monkeys around here chasing their tales...How can we cover these tracks! G, I do not know! Make sure you at least hit the bases! At least, this is the best advice a signifying monkey can give! Any Lions around?

Look, the wisest assessment of human behavior that I ever-heard was this! Most, who obtain wealth, shy away from many of those former common and frequent relationships, Why! People do not change! It is not that the person who accumulated what might not last a lifetime or a decade, yet deemed a fortune by most, has changed, whether he be basically "God-fearing" or "evil".

Those he has known do not change! Extended family members, who I might have seen once in a "lunar-eclipse" of a blue moon, where calling and visiting, when it looked like I might play Div-I athlete. Many thought that the "steriods" offered by a LG was worth it! Considering sources of advice and one's perspectives helps in the "decision-making" process.

And, I am as guilty as the rest concerning hanging out with rich folk! When an extended "family-member" who I likely never sent a birthday or Christmas card or present, during our childhoods, and mine was "Grrreat!", became a member of an NFL family, I was calling more frequently than the Fraternal Botherhood of Police and The Professional Firefighters of America, plus standing on that family's doorstep more often than the Jehovah's Witnesses or a Traveler's Insurance Salesman.

When I heard the summation of "why those who accumulate "large-sums", whom you know, but rarely ever spent time around, do not correspond anymore than they do.", I started shouting 'Amen!" and, did a Pentecostal-style dance of jubilation!"

Some wise woman said "People do not change! People do not change! They forever stay the same!" And, if it ain't been a regular thing for the past few decades! Why fuss with a perfect arrangement! People do not change!" ?Ponder That!

If they did not have a spec of respect for you when you where broke, you will not see any real respect with Hills of Gold from Havilah and all of Bashan red bulls!
And, in light of how we behave,....

"...it repented the LORD that he had made man on the earth, and it grieved him at his heart." [Gen 6:6 KJV]

What did it say! Now that last verse is not directed at children or youth, your sins are insignificant when compared with most adults! Grown folks, we know us! Know thyself! Do not forget your face, when you walk away from that mirror.

Do not let me reiterate any of those comments about robotic teller's outside the bank buildings. did anyone call Transaction System Architects (TSA)!

Look, if a Luke 11:11, John 3:16 Father disowns us between Genesis 6:6  (KJV) and Exodus 32:14 (KJV)...Look we know US! I need clarification from a highly-qualified behavioral health professional on this, preferably one with a board certification, could the Lord have been diagnosed with a "schizo-typal' personality disorder, based upon its DSM criteria. This is the equivalent of a being misanthrope. Or, does He know US, been exceedingly gracious in dealing with US, and is tired of our "pathetic excuses" and nonsense.

Thought the He loved you know matter what...Well, grow up! Do what you are told! Where! Do you value it! Have you read it?!

This is how one "appropriately" deals with an adult...Offer advice, from his view or perspective, it might be wise or unwise...If the other adult stumbles..."Told you so" are the only words that come from "hateful, unloving fools"...Continuing the "heart-felt" suggestions are a sign of a desire for seeing some semblance of a "God-fearing" community. "Told you so" comes from a false feeling of "proof" that the unscientific, myopic view of a snippet of information from a few sentences here combined with a few yonder thoughts! And, considering how most of the "grown ups" that I encounter, many being medical doctorates from the local state system, "Cause I say so!" covers it! It is like asking a child why her playmates that she treats like human dolls should conform with her every command!.."Cause I say so!" If I do not comply is tantrum time for you or me! Tell you what..When I fit...You fit...We fit! James 1; James 4! Can you take advice from a community computing-dip!

If one's given advice seeks such a goal of harmonious living...one could be making suggestions that help that self-centered "number-one" find some more sugar from a sweet never-ending sucker! This comment comes from the perspective of someone called a "dog" and, pardon the expression, slut, for speaking with others who were not like me! I have been told "that I will show anyone and anything love!". And, it rarely sinks as low as eros; I have been in the Agape and Philo-clouds most of these fifty years!

Would anyone call your church missionary this? That is "slut" or "dog"? What is their goal overseas, raping a community which is already hurting and troubled? Do we see a "schism" in the American faith practice? The wounds of a friend are faithful!

If I tell you that you are the greatest extent of the qualities that you cherish the most! Would you like me...Would you trust me....Would you purchase  this product or that...If I covered you with so much sweet sugar that it made you nauseated....would we be friend or enemies....could we enjoy the capricious sounds of nature in this area of the country with such beautiful fair weather. Read a tad bit farther beyond the scripture about friendly wounds...

If someone shares privately, you are a rather "nice guy", but you should properly re-examine your showering protocol. Everything should be orderly and in proper fashion. You are a "little malodorous". It is a guy and, especially, an athlete thing! Do not sweat it!

Or, here is one for you, your running-buddy, is becoming increasingly 'out-spoken' in these classes, and it is driving some of these teachers bonkers! He is bound for trouble! And, you pause and say, "I am the out-spoken one!".

If someone says, you probably should let the girls win more often, or they will never much like you [athletes are overly competitive and are only thinking of a dynasty, with every competition! ] Yet, this overly competitive nature might be natural protection, like rarely carrying more than $5(US) in a wallet!

 
This is another friendly wound for the South, be careful of what one claims are "special secrets" presented in that "pornographic, blasphemous" film, the Last Temptation of Christ. A film heavily attended a stones throw North of DFW, of TBN fame, where ranches, cars, and hair are big...And, the churches houses are bigger still...when this picture was in its original "theatre-run". Yet, watching Run DMC's Tougher Than Leather required signing a list, before entering the movie, in those days. This hip-hop film had three viewers, when I attended it originally ran...

Plus, around 2003, Fat Albert and Coach Carter, were seen by a smattering of attendees. Albeit, Run is know a "reverend", he and the rest of the popular music group are human. Coach Carter depicted issues had by typical "inner-city" teens.

Now, despite the stereotypes portrayed, mankind in this country has certain highly common "down-fallings". Yet, Does Christ? Who gets the acclaim. Not me, the author of this web-log.

Yet, that last "temptation" followed by one of the greatest lies in history, that [  ] lived a life on earth after [       ], with a wife and children. Proceeded by the scene of [  ] copulating with a concubine. The [ ] are placeholders for He and His Resurrection. This is the only means of conveying the thought, although it is a lie, and reducing the extent of the blasphemous construction. DFW is the "bible-belt" folks, and this is profile of the United States! Well, look at you, folks!

Wear your black, from "shine-in" forehead until polished-toe, let your daytime running-lights "blaze" in that procession that was forming circa 2004!

The country of Free Speech are we? A light is "Shine-in" on Beacon Hill.....

Lord, let Your Light from Your Lighthouse Shine on me...Shine on me.....Shine on me....I wonder if the light from Your Lighthouse will Shine on Me....

The premise was, The Lord's Breath That Structures US...If we were as smart as the "dumb", not "stupid" animals...who the Lord ask that we tend..If we could accept that children are bright, exceedingly so, seeing that they have fewer of life's concern burdening them, than most adults, we might let His Spirit mould US like the wheat fields of Kansas. And, the "unacceptable memories" which shall never be corroborated by a credible source or accepted from a person whose 'out-spoken" nature precipitated many an "ear-tuggings!", "Uh? What was that!" If these many lives are the cost of keeping secrets that brought TSA corporate wealth, possibly funneled wealth fueling this communities growth, and other large and small American interest, who were fortuitously poised in the American markets, with "short interest" on United or other airline carriers plus "long interest" on oil and fuel companies, whether those interest be options, futures, or common stock, I, the author have little-interest in "secret-holding" and simply am through with you, and the aught which ought never have arisen....
Enjoy those store houses or grain....And, the boast of this season, I shall go here or yonder and conduct business...

Oh, as they always say when the mud starts flying off the fan in the workplace...Uh, it was the African-American..He is a big football player..You know the "stupid", highly volatile-type....Here tell he is "insane"...Look would you argue with a medical doctor...He is not like US; We are more of that Travis Tritt crowd..He more a notorious B.I.G. type....Look if it Coloured and has an Afro, it  is a Muslim..I know one when I see one..Now see all those picture of Jesus on church windows and in those college textbooks, who does that look almost like....Right, Right, Right.....You and me, we are Christians.....Trust me, looking for work, I have the perfect position at Central States Indemnity...They are all good-white Christian...Right...Right...Right..Look, I know my friends, let's stop by the pub, we will discuss what we can do about getting more "people" in this role and these Muslims out...Right...Right...Right...Here have a "smoke"!...That boy always gets on my nerve, he ain't the only smart person around....a room full of smart "people" are sitting amongst him.....Why does he dare open his mouth?...Right...Right..Right....I knew when I could tell if one was smart, the "boy" would not open his mouth in the presence of "people" ...Right..Right...Right... a "dumb boy" is a "smart boy"
...Right..Right...Right... that simply proves "the boy" is "stupid"
...Right..Right..Right....QEDMI..And, I tain't intersted in hearing anything else
...Right...Right..Right...For, as I am concerned, I ain't interested bout hearing all these abstract notions bout this that and the other..In need proof, an example, a solid, single example, and far as I am concerned "that boy" has proved that anything that is not near that picture of Jesus in complexion is "stupid"...Right...Right..Right...That proves it by mutual agreement! We need more "people" in this profession! Right......

Now, what if I say, let's try this approach for "supporting Dave Hilbert's premise...Diophantine Equations are solvable..."...Maybe, put a Dutch Wind Mill in the bottle-neck of a car's energy flow....Compress a file of arbitrary-size, until it is "well-less" than a "kilo-byte"...try electro-magnetic shielding so one overcomes the "input = output" cost of the uniting and repelling like charged posts, although a field rise time exists...,this might signal an "untapped, bountiful" source of work that can be done by the undiminished, electric charges that have been interacting since Genesis 1:1(KJV)...Novel concern partitioning..objects, aspects, JAVA, Actionable Data Structures...What do I hear? No... not that "never-was" let alone "has-been" athlete..He is definitely.."insane"....then, I pause and mention that my hearing is flaky nearing fifty, What did Wu say?

And, if I really am interested in being ignored...Can you see Matthew 5:17-20 (KJV) from this author's perspective, we Christians all should be more diligent about following Old Testament Law when we can...Look, I have been thirty years labeled insane, paranoid schizophrenic, bipolar when that label did not stick, and it all started with a diagnosis of the "mild-anxieties" associated "student-athletic" performance in a new, unknown city with a month's worth living expenses had college fell-through, that is high-wire walk without a net...topped by over-training and my unforgettable nurse acquaintance...so, about Matthew 5:17-20 (KJV) ask some one is deemed wise and sane....Then, pass on the Word! This will blow US in shape!

Regards,

Beauregard

- Duke Talent Search 1884 [unregistered, undocumented, "file-13" case study]
- written on Navy Blue Paper.......
- whose images might be profiled on the current Duke site....at last glimpse..It surely was not a representative sample of America..In fact, were any "Americans" on this page Hopi, Choctaw, Hmong, Apache, Cherokee, Lakota, Mohican, Blackfoot, Iroquois, and various more..forgive me for judging an academic "web-site" by its cover...  

Psalm 1; Ecclesiates 7:28; (KJV)

This is a Leprous Region....

Stay Marvelously Blessed!

What will we do with US, huh?

May this week be filled with many blessings? It is somewhat disconcerting, when the interest in one of likely trillions of web-entries covering technical concepts on the Internet receives numerous more views than a companion post by the same author which focuses on self-discipline arising from a God-fearing faith. So folks, what will we do with US? Is this world money at all cost!

Can the wealth, the wealthy, or promises of such save anyone? Can it spare anyone from the painful progression of a naturally-occurring illness? Or, can it prevent an untimely or premature death? It might produce such. Some high-profile cases from the last five decades enter my mind concerning male and female entertainers from the last five decades who lived a life of enviable luxuries, yet left this Earth under questionable circumstances. And, some were under the care of a medical specialists well-known for entertainment-medicine. Sadly, media reports revealed the ruckus that ensued when a legal circus started revolving around who would take custody of each celebrity's estate and an heir's inheritance, mad-capped, maniacal money!!!

And, once again, a country, whose military reach spans the globe and who has an economic impact felt among open-air markets in developing nations and within the most well-heeled financial markets, has voted for a business magnate as its visible national leader. A leader who knows about the confidence one can solicit from others with the promise of potential payment, based upon his personal history of profit-making. A history that started with social connection that permitted securing large, lucrative loans. These debts real estate investors call "leverage". They let one pry away at profit potential, for one's property leasers or buyers will eventually cover any expenses incurred in repaying the debt. So, a person can have property holdings of impressive "market" value, the trappings of wealth such as the finest homes, automobiles, suits of clothes, plus large balances in numerous bank and brokerage accounts, but when honestly reconciled, they might have less than a woman who spent her life working as "day-help", saved regularly, and could leave a local college an endowment that will be supporting educations for decades, if not centuries! When one looks at the ratio of financial return and impact versus the resources available for producing it, the power of self-discipline, frugality, and thrift is not only immeasurably, but it is unbeatable! Yet, a woman who would be flattered, if she were given a fancy title of "personal assistant", cannot make "a problem" disappear with a phone call, unless she makes it from a prayer closet.

So, what shall we do with US?!? Can we agree that we need help? Professional counseling will not fix this? Most of America's counselors need counseling! Pardon, the repeated term suggesting what learned medical professionals call a "poverty of speech". In the world of creative English writing, this is called an epanalepsis. And, if rebutted by a well-read client, these medical professionals might call this a "pleonasm spasm" and try medicating it with a strong muscle relaxant which induces immediate incontinence. When certain individuals enter a given station in life, they simply will not consider advice from anyone, including those floating in their same perceived social stratosphere. This is why American counselor specializing in psychology are some of the "most sociopathic" among US.

The wise thief was wise enough that he said, "Remember me when You enter Your Kingdom!". Social leaders from periods of troubling American unrest have said, in paraphrase, "Many blessings lay ahead! I might reach not them in my lifetime! Yet, they are for everyone who will willing strive for them...a bright and future day exists for future generations." And, someone who might never call you a friend, nor claim that you are, might say, "a better life exists outside the path on which I travel...I pray that you find it....I have heard tell of a life of simple blessings untold, peace in the midst of the most turbulent of life's storms, and a Friend unlike any other...it starts with a single step in yon direction....if you start along that narrow and straight path you should not have any trouble finding a quality map...who knows some of these folks on rabble-rouser road might follow, including me....!"

Most American counselors, including those among God-fearing congregations, will provide Jerry Springer therapy session after session, at the tune of $225+ per hour of "professional services". They respond with "it is what it is" for any and every "seemingly, never-ending confused personal account of life's difficulties". And, the summation of month's worth of sessions is "Look, one must adapt and survive within this world based upon the way it is when they enter it and where they enter it! It will never change and you will never change it!" Then, they will make some feeble attempt at paraphrasing a scriptural verse, such as, "Nothing new exists under the Sun!" Yet, they will not considering ingesting the  Prozac that they give others for the mildest of melancholy, disillusionment, or discontentment.  And, when their greed has produced a weekly case load beyond their capacity and they decide the they will "exchange" a few client's with another practice for a financial consideration, one will likely hear, "For Pete's sake, grow up and put on your (big boy boxers/big girl bloomers)! You are old enough that you should understand some things about life! Here, I give you another chance at sorting this out. I said that I would. I have a friend who I think can help.I have done all that I can. I will make this referral."  So, what will wii do with Us, huh! Sound like one of those old trite mind-games "seasoned" teenagers would play with a "new girl or guy" that just entered the dating scene? Why would someone waste the time sitting in classes, possibly costing a small fortune, for a piece of paper with a designation of advanced learning on it, simply so they can play mind-games! Mostly likely, it simply pays bills. It costs lives from unneeded suicides and homicides; yet, most "professionals" use that same "weak" excuse....certain situations never improve....we must accept this....And, then they have the unmitigated gall that they will conclude with, "let go and let God!"

"Wait someone better hold on! The whole world is going crazy! Someone better stay strong!" - Kierra Sheard

When most American counselors realize that a person is easy-going, trusting, plus giving, often more-so than the average American, and that this person is frequently accepting a roles in everyday relationships which others would call being "used" and not not properly utilized or compensated for the gifts and talents which this person possesses, they will simply say, "Ooooh how sweet! Let me get a couple of licks of this never-ending sucker!". This response is what one would expect from most immature, anti-social adolescents who were raised in the midst of dysfunction, jaded by life's experiences at a very early age, bitter from the unhealthy, unhealed heartbreaks, hoping that they can punish the entire world for their misfortune, and who have never sought the solace that faith in God brings.

When most American counselors meet with such a person, they will be pegged in short-order. The counselor will likely know by the requested purpose for the session. Most of us can swell dog-hairs, especially those soaked by the rains of mistreatment long before the unwanted mongrel enters clear-view, with his tail-dragging, head hovering slightly above his paws, and his ears dragging through the dirt. Most counselors and other social predators can spot someone who simply needs a friend, who will be reasonably equitable when dealing with them. And, if the were such a friend themselves, they would, say, "In this world, a truly, trustworthy and faithful friend, nare a man might find amongst thousands, it would take some pain-staking searching, but I know of a friend who cleaves more closely than a brother!".

What will we do with US, huh? Someone called the Paraclete will help! This is simply the Holy Ghost that portion of the Trinity which is the binary-blessing of peace, tranquility, and calm; a mixture of knowing that His Graceful Mercies poured out on an old-rugged crosses and still flow in the fabric of Eternity, realizing that if earthly fathers being evil can bless their children with good gifts, how much more can the Father in Heaven grant us a full portion of His Holy Spirit if we only ask, and one of the beautiful gifts that the Holy Ghost offers is a peace which passes  understanding.

Translated Paraclete means Comforter. The Holy Ghost is called a Counselor! It was promised that Jesus Christ, the Messiah would be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty King, Lord of Lords....Should not an earthly counselor provide comfort from worries, frets, and anxieties! Could they at least give us a referral, before fleecing our insurance companies and possibly sitting by calmly, as our lives enters a tailspin. Well, Jehovah-Rapha can be found in the Book. That is not necessarily a phone-book. He has quite an excellent record of successfully healing and protecting humankind from the sickness and pains of this life.

So, what will we do with US, huh! This simply cannot continue, if we any hope for long-term joy, peace, love, hope or any other of His Beautiful and Bountiful Blessings....So, what will we do! I will help you...You will help me...Then, we will help US be better with the Lord's Guidance, His Mercy, and Hid Grace! That is what we shall do with US! Promise!

May The Lord Keep...May His Grace Shine Upon You...Until We All Meet Again...and Enjoy Being the US....That El-Shaddai Intended!

Mercies Undeserved

May this week flow with ripples of His Mercy and rivulets of His Goodness! The following song contains one of those messages which one might hear differently based upon life's circumstances and one's mindset Reading scriptures can be much the same way, although they might be sincerely and rightly divided by a group seeking truth! Give this song by Anthony Brown and Group Therapy a listen!

Now folks! What do we deserve? All of us, based upon Leviticus and Matthew 5:17-20 (KJV) are deserving of death. Yet, when judged by the the litmus test of the life's of other men, their deeds both just and evil, many of us can say, we are deserving of much more than we have! This might not only be financial. Many of us would be quite happy, if we had fewer seemingly unnecessary difficulties. Many are longing for a realized dream, garden-variety or grand, that has been stalled by unexpected circumstances or a clearly-seen, slow-moving, yet unavoidable avalanche!

Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life. (Proverb 13:12)[KJV]

For those of you who wonder why has not that ship arrived...Do not cease enjoying walks along that pier, strolls along that bay, and jaunts along that sandy beach! Yet, a supertanker full of all your hopes and dreams might bring a new mixture of life situations that would not be worth an earthly fortune, as great as the Sultan of Brunei's, with all the smiles, kind words, life's luxuries, and social access that it brings!

Consider this! Being that this web-log author has a mathematical hobby, this following Biblical relationship is easily remembered. (Psalm 37;Psalm 73)


Psalm 37 (KJV)

[[[A Psalm] of David.]] Fret not thyself because of evildoers, neither be thou envious against the workers of iniquity.

For they shall soon be cut down like the grass, and wither as the green herb.
Trust in the LORD, and do good; [so] shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily thou shalt be fed.

Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.
Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring [it] to pass.
And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy judgment as the noonday.

Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass.
Cease from anger, and forsake wrath: fret not thyself in any wise to do evil.
For evildoers shall be cut off: but those that wait upon the LORD, they shall inherit the earth.

For yet a little while, and the wicked [shall] not [be]: yea, thou shalt diligently consider his place, and it [shall] not [be].

But the meek shall inherit the earth; and shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace.

The wicked plotteth against the just, and gnasheth upon him with his teeth.
The Lord shall laugh at him: for he seeth that his day is coming.
The wicked have drawn out the sword, and have bent their bow, to cast down the poor and needy, [and] to slay such as be of upright conversation.
Their sword shall enter into their own heart, and their bows shall be broken.
A little that a righteous man hath [is] better than the riches of many wicked.
For the arms of the wicked shall be broken: but the LORD upholdeth the righteous.

The LORD knoweth the days of the upright: and their inheritance shall be for ever.

They shall not be ashamed in the evil time: and in the days of famine they shall be satisfied.

But the wicked shall perish, and the enemies of the LORD [shall be] as the fat of lambs: they shall consume; into smoke shall they consume away.
The wicked borroweth, and payeth not again: but the righteous sheweth mercy, and giveth.

For [such as be] blessed of him shall inherit the earth; and [they that be] cursed of him shall be cut off.

The steps of a [good] man are ordered by the LORD: and he delighteth in his way.

Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down: for the LORD upholdeth [him with] his hand.

I have been young, and [now] am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread.

[He is] ever merciful, and lendeth; and his seed [is] blessed.
Depart from evil, and do good; and dwell for evermore.
For the LORD loveth judgment, and forsaketh not his saints; they are preserved for ever: but the seed of the wicked shall be cut off.
The righteous shall inherit the land, and dwell therein for ever.
The mouth of the righteous speaketh wisdom, and his tongue talketh of judgment.

The law of his God [is] in his heart; none of his steps shall slide.
The wicked watcheth the righteous, and seeketh to slay him.
The LORD will not leave him in his hand, nor condemn him when he is judged.
Wait on the LORD, and keep his way, and he shall exalt thee to inherit the land: when the wicked are cut off, thou shalt see [it].

I have seen the wicked in great power, and spreading himself like a green bay tree.

Yet he passed away, and, lo, he [was] not: yea, I sought him, but he could not be found.

Mark the perfect [man], and behold the upright: for the end of [that] man [is] peace.

But the transgressors shall be destroyed together: the end of the wicked shall be cut off.

But the salvation of the righteous [is] of the LORD: [he is] their strength in the time of trouble.

And the LORD shall help them, and deliver them: he shall deliver them from the wicked, and save them, because they trust in him.


Psalm 73 (KJV)

[[A Psalm of Asaph.]] Truly God [is] good to Israel, [even] to such as are of a clean heart.

But as for me, my feet were almost gone; my steps had well nigh slipped.
For I was envious at the foolish, [when] I saw the prosperity of the wicked.
For [there are] no bands in their death: but their strength [is] firm.
They [are] not in trouble [as other] men; neither are they plagued like [other] men.

Therefore pride compasseth them about as a chain; violence covereth them [as] a garment.

Their eyes stand out with fatness: they have more than heart could wish.
They are corrupt, and speak wickedly [concerning] oppression: they speak loftily.

They set their mouth against the heavens, and their tongue walketh through the earth.

Therefore his people return hither: and waters of a full [cup] are wrung out to them.

And they say, How doth God know? and is there knowledge in the most High?
Behold, these [are] the ungodly, who prosper in the world; they increase [in] riches.

Verily I have cleansed my heart [in] vain, and washed my hands in innocency.
For all the day long have I been plagued, and chastened every morning.
If I say, I will speak thus; behold, I should offend [against] the generation of thy children.

When I thought to know this, it [was] too painful for me;
Until I went into the sanctuary of God; [then] understood I their end.
Surely thou didst set them in slippery places: thou castedst them down into destruction.

How are they [brought] into desolation, as in a moment! they are utterly consumed with terrors.

As a dream when [one] awaketh; [so], O Lord, when thou awakest, thou shalt despise their image.

Thus my heart was grieved, and I was pricked in my reins.
So foolish [was] I, and ignorant: I was [as] a beast before thee.
Nevertheless I [am] continually with thee: thou hast holden [me] by my right hand.

Thou shalt guide me with thy counsel, and afterward receive me [to] glory.
Whom have I in heaven [but thee]? and [there is] none upon earth [that] I desire beside thee.

My flesh and my heart faileth: [but] God [is] the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.

For, lo, they that are far from thee shall perish: thou hast destroyed all them that go a whoring from thee.

But [it is] good for me to draw near to God: I have put my trust in the Lord GOD, that I may declare all thy works.

 
Life hath learnt this simple man who struggled with foolishness, won, and then was waylaid by fools. And, struggles once again. But, a single fact of which this author is steadfastly certain is , "His Joy does not come in a multitude of carnal and material things; be they life's fineries, friends, or fortified fortunes!"

It is a very sad commentary on life when one can say that sincere efforts at scriptural adherence, both private and public, brought the very same level of criticism, rebuke, and censure as my most "foolish" years, if not more. And, when back-slidden and making mistakes which are trivial based upon the American standard of behavior, the most common word that this author hears is "hypocrite!".

In this author's life, he might have had one near perfect day. A "Be ye perfect as your Father in Heaven is perfect! This after four or five years of regular daily scriptural study and overcoming every sinful, addictive behavior which kept me shackled. The sole mistake of this day was violating a common dietary law, once. And, seeing that other humans were not part of that day's equation, anger did enter my heart.

Yet, it seems that many feel much better when those who have freed themselves from a life steeped in the drunkenness of sin and imbibed deep draughts of an ambrosia drawn from the Paraclete's fruits ( Galatians 5:22-23 KJV ) take a few sips of the old evil brew.

And, another of life's lesson which is somewhat humorous in retrospect is that the "smartest" students in school often set by the one's who scored well-above the average in academic subjects but had not a single clue about the "herpetine-streak" which runs along the spine of so many members of humankind. Yet, being one who was often called "booksmart", although clueless beyond the measure of a star-gazing galactic dash, one phenomenal aspect of life taught that being called an imbecile was often followed, by another student presenting the very concepts scribbled in the margin of a notebook while others were still slowly following the instructor's scrawling solution, only a short-time later.

Being robbed of a simplistic concept whether novel or trite is of very little consequence. Having one's faith ripped away, whether quickly and violently or gradually with the slow-deceitfulness of this life's pragmatic-inversions that occur as we all age, it is the greatest loss one can suffer! And, whether intentional or not, we have all been guilty of robbing another of his faith, if we are truly and brutally honest with ourselves. This might simply be a result of a grossly blatant and lackadaisical application of the scriptures which many of us were given as children (Proverbs 1:8-10 [KJV]). It has often been said that a believer's life might be the only "Bible" an unbeliever reads.

So for those who profess a Christian Faith, live it as if not only your life eternal depended upon it, but the life eternal of your fellowman. And, simply be honest when meeting unbelievers. Say, "The sincerity with which I am treading out this Christian walk is beneath the standard set by scripture, and I must ultimately enter an eternal rest or torment based on how I resolve my life's issues." Shame does not exist in saying one has not hit the bull-eye. More arrows are in one's quiver! More sunny skies for practicing that skill which that lost book of the Old Testament says is so valuable are only on the other side of a one of life's many storms. And, the greatest gift a Christian believer can give another God-fearing man with the message of the Gospel is this. The very heart-felt hope that every recipient of the Gospel message experiences a greater success at meeting the standard for living abundantly!

With this said, look up! Blessings are falling during the darkest of nights! Also, scan upward a few paragraphs...Let us craft a nice bow from a dropped thought. If anyone must copy this author's thoughts or actions, those which placed my feet near or on the narrow, straight and not necessarily easily negotiated path that results in the promised perpetual peace of a life everlasting would be most wise.

And, advice from one who has trod a few of the side-walks at well-respected colleges and universities, has interacted with a few well-known professional athletes, has briefly mingled and spoken with some of the movers and shakers in international research, academics, business, and politics, simplicity trounces  and trumps the most sophisticated and sutton of existences.

The poor is hated even of his own neighbour: but the rich hath many friends.
[ Proverb 14:20 (KJV) ]

Life has often placed this author on the precipice of vast "material" prosperity, at least, this has been the perception of others, at various times. And, it has never failed that those, who would not be gracious enough that they would acknowledge someone in this author's social stratum with a simple smile and definitely not dare offer a warm, friendly pat of the shoulder, would become the closest of conjoined twins! It has been quite a blessing that an abundance of finances has never arrived. The prospect of being a moderately successful natural athlete at seventy-six inches, ten pounds shy of the prototype professional defensive end, and exceeding all the minimum standards of the NFL combine expect running a molasses-like 4.9 forty yard dash, upon exiting high-school garnered many a shameless smile, eyelid flutter, and other attention-grabbing behaviors. The injection of this idea or that, an obvious and natural minor step beyond the text, which intrigued those students who did not bother reading the survey course's books or were majoring in other disciplines, sent some on a world-wide tour searching for diamonds in another's field, when their own was littered with same. If one of this author's former classmates seeks a single priceless idea of immeasurable potential and value, know this, it is found in Scripture.

If one can read a decades worth of the celebrity roller coaster rides in local and national newspapers, one can make it through Scripture.

If one can read any of those compulsory "dry, long-winded" novels penned by some wig-wearing Puritan which seemed ever-so "sorry" during those secondary school days, we can read Scripture!

The Cannon used by the Christian Protestant is a phenomenal reading experience. It is eye-opening and refreshing! And, it is so incredibly empowering for those who are forward thinkers. Those who have a positive-orientation when addressing scriptural study will reap the largest bounty. The Lord has navigated the author around pitfall seen and unseen. At times, some might have been left with the perception that he was lowered from a opening in a fortified wall during the darkest part of the night or the he disappear in a sudden fog! Truth be told, a life which leaves him wondering "why me?"...."why numerous untold blessings which he could never fully recount; some which might unfold long-after that last synapse fires in the white sea of unconsciousness which we travel between Earth and eternity"...."why another day after the third or fourth dangerous mishap which quite possibly could have been the last"...."when so many simply do not escape such situations"...."in the midst, of unmerited accusation after accusation"...."when men of this hue have been traditionally found in ditches or hanging from trees for being accused of stealing less than $1.38 (US)".....The only conclusion, be it right or wrong, when presented with Genesis 1 on a twin bed before the age of three...one of the first questions asked by that still small voice which resides in all of us was in the form of a comment... "You know if one is interested in real success then one must be different than everyone else...Being old enough the one could realize that few if any followed any rules of "good"-behavior....this author's response, in more mature terms, was that the message in the Bible is the most profitable "contrarian" strategy in the era. This is if one is seeking spiritual prosperity.

With that said, some others might have made a different choice when posed with the same question on this life's test....

As such, some who read...

Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life. (Proverb 13:12)[KJV]

will place unjust barriers between one and his goals. Why, for the fulfillment of personal material or emotional goals. It might be their never ending search of control over others, the accumulation of the wealth which they amass from addressing your "constant worries" which arise from not arriving at a life's planned destination who ETA was more than a decade ago, or simply the deep-seated spite that they hold in their hearts when they see the slightest glimmer of the Lord's sunshine reach your eyes. This is rather unfortunate! When we work against the Lord's plan for His children and the rest of His creation, we are on some else's time-clock. And, the wages which the Lord permits the this entity pays can be extremely high but are rather unpleasant.

So, please read it with a forward mind-set. Sincerely blessing someone you hate or despise might lessen that feeling! And, if one have fully experienced the love-loathing inversion which happens in some as they age, life becomes miserable when hatred brings about those "positive physiological feelings" that were once accompanied with being in the presence of one truly beloved. The only solution share the Love of God until it triggers the mirth in one's heart that it should.

In closing, the intent of this message was sharing a few documented cases of the dysfunction found in care facilities whose goal is helping those with conditions, although severe, debilitating, feared, are often met with peels of laughter by those who have not experienced such and do not understand erratic behaviors often by the medical treatments which specialists claim are helpful. Those might be placed in-line in this web-log in a future note. But, if you are interested in understanding a challenge which arises from the same place, he who comes so he might kill, steal, and, destroy, YouTube has a few video documentaries about abuse in insane asylums. And, with all YouTube content, future reading in credible sources might either shore up the claims or decimate their foundations.

But, one incredibly interesting fact among these accounts is that turn of the century asylums where well-known for housing some wives who dare question their husbands! These were the very types who lobbied for female suffrage and other social opportunities that had been long-established in Christian scripture and the American social contract known as the Constitution, such as the Fifteenth Amendment.

A rather well-known Eastern European or Russian philosopher was credited with the observation that "one can tell the health of country's political system based upon the members of its citizenry one finds in prisons and insane asylums". They are often ones who this world's powerful and elite, not necessarily righteous, desire be silenced and discounted!

These experiences are not the worst that this America can deal, but being tackled by a squad of nurses and forcibly tranquilized until unconscious is not a pleasant experience! And, it is rather irritating after one has peacefully, politely, quietly, and assertively stated that such treatments are simply not needed in one's case. With that said, here is how a few well-trained nurses can handle a large, irate man, who has done prison time for a violent crime, without immediately taking his life.

Now, a couple of observations, the man in the above YouTube video was rather large and not in the best of mental states, yet a well-trained squad of, pardon the stereotypes, a few small females and pencil-necked geeks, subdued and sedated him. This might be a value training video for police officers dealing with angry, agitated, and unarmed men. Many of those with labels of insanity have died simply because life's prospects seem so incredibly bleak! Some have taken their lives in an instant; other have seen the slow decline arising from the addictions which accompany hopelessness! And, for all others, most would rather see a day in court. Whether or not, its justice was meet. And, second, we this man at one of his life's low points. One questioned asked by many specialists who prescribe such medications is whether a new client is an illicit drug user. The reason for the question might be manifold. But, one fact of which rest upon this author's tapestry on misty water-colored memories is a distant conversation between twenty-something second grade student teachers, the one comment that sometimes she can hear her mother's voice as clear as a bell, and her co-teacher's response that she should stop doing that. Was that the use of her natural aural imaginative powers such that she could conjure up her mother's voice? Was is the use of one of the mind-altering and expanding substances of that day? If so, this, intuitively, might be precipitating of the auditory experience of the dangerous fellow in the above video. We see him at this five-minute snapshot of his life. He might have been a the stereotypical gentle giant before ingesting that first dose of "medications" in this class of treatments. A class of treatments which, at one time, the hallucinogenic, LSD, was touted as a potentially be a valuable member. For those, who might have taken such substances, only you can determine whether an aural experience that he finds alarming would only be the everyday bumps felt as one slides down that mountain basking in the setting of sunny skies. This big brute, who has seen prison time, might not have had a single beer before some nurse, well-intentioned or not, placed a tablet in his hand and offered him a Dixie cup of water. Perception...social labels....referent, reward, punitive, and expert power...and the Power of God.....

His Mercies...Untold! In Your Lives May More Unfold....!

This author, who has been tasered twice with only forty-eight hours of bed-rest and a small meal after losing over fifty pounds of water weight during nearly  seven straight days of unconsciousness induced by the venomous sting of a centipede exceeding three feet in length found crawling across his neck one June night, His Mercy has granted him one more day, so he might say his sun falls on the just and unjust! See, he has ridden a ferry on that white sea! And, seen a non-intuitive beacon signaling the presence of a not so perfect land, the life that he has always known. One, which brought frequent and unneeded injections of months worth of tranquilizers over the span of a week after the Tasering by three sheriff deputies larger than he, is the very world that he has seen experience positive outcomes from his existence, and, in a mad, rash, and headlong rush for wealth suffer chasing after the most simplistic of ideas which sound valuable. 

After fading out, at least once, when on the verge of securing what was eventually another missed "above-average" earning opportunity, he can say His Mercies reach the greatest depths of life! Seeing one eyes grow dim and the room fade slowly: light gray, gray, dark gray, and, then, finally black, is an experience which is troubling when those whom one has long trusted: friends, family, and church members, simply discuss how they will handle the situation.
Sad....Yet, His Mercies....Another day....

And, he has been nearly forced on Toprol more than once, although his blood pressure is well within the healthy norm. This is a blood-pressure medication that was removed from the pharmacist's shelves by the FDA in years past, seeing that discontinuing its use after taking it for more than three months could result in sudden heart failure.

If paranoid, he might believe someone is sincerely seeking his demise. Yet, his sibling received an allograft for treating a hair-line hip fracture. This involved the replacement of both hips with bone from the lower leg. And, in his lifetime he has seen the offspring of many professional families, especially, among minorities experience an inordinate amount of medical misfortunes. One case being, the over-prescription of Valproic acid until the resultant metabolite, ammonia, which is uncommonly high with larger daily doses of this drug, caused neurological damage. This subsequently was diagnosed as muscular dystrophy.
Where does one turn when quality medical help is increasingly elusive? Remember Jehovah-Rapha makes house calls.



Seeking those who he thought were his best card in a sleeve of never-ending trumps, he could not find the desired resolution or support in the cessation of an unneeded medical treatment. No one is so vital that a community cannot survive without them. Yet, the potential positive impact of any single person is immeasurable!  Every soldier lost in a carnal war is a price so great that a nation should avoid war at all cost. Every person who perishes in a land plenty, from other's greed and excess, might very hold the very bounty that will liberate those who disposed of him. Every child who dies from neglect, whether before or after conception, might be a country's next Gandhi, Churchill, King, Mandela, Salk, Fleming, Drew, or any number of countless individuals who have benefited society, yet remain unknown. Some of these might rest in unmarked graves or be the dust mingled within the network of roots supporting an old knurled tree.

For those who have glanced at my computing web-log, an intuition which provides a very valuable insight on numerical forecasting can be found among the notes. This could assist in the acquisition of funds for any organization. For those, who do not grasp the math notes, do not worry about it. Somethings are simply not critical for experiencing His Joy!

Slumbering during high-school's senior year spun a dream of supporting church building projects and other ministry efforts, such as material meeting the needs of widows and orphans. Yet, being classified in such a manner that one can be easily exploited and discounted in legal courts, it is quite apparent that one must be very careful about what one offers others in exchange for help. Many men will snatch a blue-ribbon bill from from a babe's hand, toss the child in a pit, and backfill the evidence of wrong-doing. This done without an ounce of compunction. This author has not seen the most dangerous thickets of the Valley of Death; but if it were not for the Lord's Distaff, he would have perished well before the age of twenty and likely been blamed for his own misfortune.

And, in retrospect, with the businessmen in this local community whom have been met along this life's path, the resources funding a better community are more than plentiful. Churches, synagogues, mosques, and temples could be  well-kept and amply endowed. The desire for doing so is simply non-existent. Most members of the America's communities do not have a passion for it.  The establishment and maintenance of the physical portion of the Lord's House is secondary when it conflicts with securing cedar paneling for a den. And, the
establishment and maintenance of the spiritual segment of the Lord's House is secondary when it conflicts with securing a seat in front of a television for the last ticks of the play-clock or the the season ending cliff-hanger of one's favorite soap opera. With such "wisdom" being the norm for America, how could we dare expect more mature and ethical behavior from medical professionals whom many of us partied alongside in high-school, college, and beyond.

Pardon the Peripatetic Ramblings...May This Week Bring Forth Many Unexpected Blessings....